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My Body is Not God Playground - Internal Organs Fireworks
No divine God or even Angel has the right to invade and violate our bodies! Divine Abuse is still Abuse, let me tell you about it :-
It all started last year, a reality few will understand. I live in a body that no longer feels like mine, it has been completely taken over.
It began suble but over time it became a full blown attack 24/7 on my most intimate, vulnerable organs my navel, vagina, uterus, kidneys, pancreas and my anal area.
A sharp internal striking force with a violent intensity striking my organs repeatedly that trigger defecation.
The body intrusion starts early in the morning at 03am or at 04am, day after day.
Deep invisible intrusion that have turned my body into a battlefield. I can desribe it as anal fireworks, and something exploding inside my body organs.
Whenever i speak with someone, whether in person, on the phone or even when writing blog posts like this, the strikes in my body starts and especially the anal region like fireworks.
At times when writing blogs he starts the foul odour and the anal fireworks, almost as if he wants to disrupt not only me, but also influence the readers experience.
I work on weekends, and the shame there is real! People who once knew me call me names.
They do not know that my body has been turned in to without a smelly divine experiment without my consent.
Lately he has been hitting my organs more aggressivly not just to hurt me physically but to block my path, my finances, to saboatge my relationships and dignity and to create conflict with people around me!
Some parts in my body knows no peace, from morning to evening.
I do not accept God who uses pain, shame and isolation as tools of control.
My Body is mine. My path is mine. My life is mine
And not for a Spiritual power
I was not borned to be a smelly vessel of shame or Angelic or God dumping ground!
What i have survived since last year is not just pain, it is life shattering Trauma!